The Gift of Life

 


Hello to you all, It has been several weeks since I've written, I can only testify to how wonderful our merciful gracious Father God is!
Dad and I have been so blessed to have the good days the Lord is allowing us to have. I truly know that life is the gift we have been given and with this life an opportunity to magnify our Jesus for giving it to us.
Psalms 66: 5 says:  "Come see what our God has done, what awesome miracles He performs for people'". 
This is the Only way we can describe how we feel each day the Lord gives us. 
Today is what the Lord has given us and today we take the "healing"  we walk by great Faith believing what God's word says, he is always with us, never leaving us nor forsaking us, He will never abandon us no matter the circumstance, Our God is with us---------
what we have learned in the past years and more so now than ever, 
we keep our 'focus on Jesus" and 'not our circumstances", 
"If" we believe the Lord in what He says through His word than we take Him at his word, 
even if life does not make sense to us, Dad and I do not understand all the things that happen, so much is beyond our comprehension, we see our Lord in action, we submit to trust Jesus more-----
He has proven Himself to us,over and over, He is very trustworthy. This is an incredible walk, it has been very hard at times, in that the Lord has chosen to stretch us through these trials and testings,and when we feel like we are at our limit, we don't know how much more we can take, Jesus gives a "reprieve"! 

This is when we dig our heels in even deeper with the Lord, knowing that there is "more to come". 
When? we don't know---------
Dad and I saturate ourselves in the word and prayer,covering each other, knowing this is not over,  the testing of our faith produces endurance developing strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope in Jesus Christ, 
Dad and I know our faith is being tested daily to walk in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin.  A-men

My Sweet Husband is doing so good, His strength is coming back, His left side is getting stronger,
He is building up endurance as we take our walks.
We can't describe the elated-ness we feel, to God be the Glory, we are so thankful for each day each moment of each day. 
Each day has struggles and challenges,and we deal with them as they come, but Praise the Lord the inner cranial pressure has yet to come back!!!!!! 
We have had a few headaches and a couple seizures, but nothing like what Dad experienced a few weeks ago---- Praise Jesus--------------- 
Thank you all so much for your consistent,vigilant,earnest prayers over us, 
I know I have said this many times but you all may never know this side of Heaven just how much your prayers have effected our lives. 
We love to "acknowledge that it is because of who Jesus is---- that by His stripes we are healed! 
He loves Healing us from the inside out. And we are so privileged, that Our Lord chose to love us 1st. 
working out our salvation daily,choosing who will be the greater influence in our Life Today----
Jesus or our flesh-----Life is sweeter everyday with Jesus.....
We depend and lean heavily on Jesus to help us daily to be all that He created us to be in Him, 
Shield to Shield, Iron sharpening Iron.
May the Lord bless all of you abundantly.......


I Love this song and It rings true every day He gives us life, Life eternal 

1. I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold;
   I’d rather be His than have riches untold;
   I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands;
   I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hand
   • Refrain:
     Than to be the king of a vast domain
     And be held in sin’s dread sway;
     I’d rather have Jesus than anything
     This world affords today.
2. I’d rather have Jesus than men’s applause;
   I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause;
   I’d rather have Jesus than worldwide fame;
   I’d rather be true to His holy name
3. He’s fairer than lilies of rarest bloom;
   He’s sweeter than honey from out the comb;
   He’s all that my hungering spirit needs;
   I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead

Praise The Name Above All Names! Yeshua Messiah, Our King Jesus.

All I know to say and testify to is "How Big and Great" "Our Holy King Jesus" Is!
{"My Cubby Is alive and doing incredibly fantastic"},
I believe "Our Living Active Father God" Has healed" my Man for "these Days" And we take it!
For Today is what He has so graciously given us.And It is sufficient! Dad has been Pain free from inner Cranial pressure for the past days and "Only,Only" could Our Living God do this!
{"The effectual fervent Prayers of the righteous availeth much"}!!!!!!!!!
Oh Thank you Precious Saints of our Lord Jesus Christ for all your persistent, consistent,vigilant, interceding on our Behalf. We Bless you and Graciously thank you In "Yesuah Messiahs Holy Perfect Name" above all Names.
And at the Name of Jesus every  knee will bow , every tongue will confess Jesus is Lord, in heaven on earth and under the earth!
He is alive active Risen!!!!!!!!!!
             {"All Glory to our Lord Jesus Christ, We Magnify you O God of Heaven and Earth"}

Life is short no matter how long we live, Compared to Eternity!

This was just a week ago today Ron was doing good enough we could go out on the boat with a Dear friend 
Marty escorted us over to a near by Island so we could step foot on it and see the"Ol post office" an old Log Cabin, "wild west"------so amazing, so beautiful, you must have a boat to get to it, 
and a friend who has "kin!
A very sweet day out on the water,this is very soothing to Dad to be on the water.

Here it is Friday the 22nd  a week later and things have changed considerably.
As we go through each day I see how simple our lives have become, nothing seems to important, 
too pressing that we rush to do!---  We are on slow mode!
We take it minute by minute,  keeping Dad safe from falling, and comfortable as possible! 
I am so thankful and grateful for this Property the Lord has allowed us to live on, it is so kind to us! 
So peaceful, quiet, stress free,only deer and more deer beautiful scenery------------we take short little walks, just enough to get the ol heart pumping, and the body moving.
Thank you Jesus for your merciful kindness toward us in this simple way.

What used to be just the "norm" Long walks,Yard sales, "looky leuwing" in Hardware store-etc-                    are over-whelming and tasking ----

If were in the middle of conversation with someone,----so sorry------ forgive our urgent escape------------ its not personal! ------Ron needs to go, it's just to much! --- Home is His safe zone!
we thank the Lord for the "hours" He gives us.

Dad spends most of His days in bed, His headaches have increased,when I ask him the pain level 1-10 they used to be about a 4-6 Now they are 9-9-1/2 this is so not good--- 
he is more nausea's the pain is so bad, last night was the worst he puked, the pain got so bad, tonight he is dry-heaving and he didn't eat today.
His appetite has decreased, not eating hardly anything, just wants to sleep to rid the pain, 
I lay for hours just listening to him sleep,Praying we wake together in the morning---------
My heart aches more than I ever knew it could, to watch my Husband have so much pain, 
So many thoughts go through my mind,I can't seem to hold back the tears,
I know the Lord knows what I am feeling,--------I know He knows all my thoughts,
and He knows all the unanswered questions I will ask.
I cry out Abba, Father comfort us in this time of need---please ease Dad's pain away, 
O Lord this hurts so bad, -----and yet you know this, -----you know the pain all to well, 
you suffered beyond our pains greatly, beyond anything we may humanly endure--you share our pain,
you share our sorrow, you hear our cry, your right here with us through it all, you have never failed us never abandoned us!

In my sorrow and tears,I don't know what tomorrow brings, only you do Lord,  the wrenching ache lingers and does not want to let go of the flesh,touch,smell,warmth,laughter,holding hands, arm in arm,kisses,sweet kind words, Mrs C ----I Love you, goofiness, so much time spent together, I never can tire of the time spent together,       "Time"slows down,Time speeds up, Time controls,Time passes,Time is wasted,
You have made my days a mere hand breadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. 
Everyone is but a breath, even those who seem secure.Psalms 39:5

It doesn't keep my heart from feeling all the things of my flesh ,I cherish the days we have together  blessed no matter our circumstance, We have so many memories together  38 years of them -------- 
I know you are with us Father,bending down  hearing my deepest ache of agony, as I  grieve with the one I have deeply grown to love more in this life "because of you Lord Jesus"------------You have blessed our Marriage beyond my expectations.

You have done such a beautiful work in My husband from the inside out,  you have changed things in Him that only you could change,because of your great Love, and tender ways speaking into his heart intentionally-Dad has a willing heart to respond to your Spirit and allow you to search,and sift the deepest parts of his heart and refine those areas that only you can do through your word and Holy Spirits convicting power.

Dad praising the Lord this morning singing,"How great is our God"

Dad does not want to be one who "barely makes it through the fire" because of God's mercy, {just satisfied to be saved and live life comfortably without an inner change towards eternity}. ----------
1 Corinthians 3:10-15
By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as a wise builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should build with care.For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ.If anyone builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw,their work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each person's work.
If what has been built survives, the builder will receive a reward.If it is burned up, the builder will suffer loss but yet will be saved--even though only as one escaping through the flames.

Spiritual pride is detestable before the Lord; it is using the greatest favors of God, to feed our own vanity, and make an idol of our self! 

Dad and I can only compare and measure our lives according to God's word, and allow His word to kindly judge our lives,and keep us on track! 
Dad understands the difference between "being saved" and "working out His salvation daily"! {were saved by God's grace} Because of His Perfect Son Jesus Christ}
It's a daily commitment and a surrender, Dad yields "His will" to the "Fathers will"----He says: Lord have your way and will in my Life and surface all those deep lurking {sins} that violate your Holiness in My life and prevent daily fellowship and intimacy. Take your "double edged sword of truth" and divide my soul and spirit,clean out all the impurities that need purifying, 
Our souls are being saved everyday. if we allow God's Holy perfect word to Judge us in a good way every day we open up God's Truth, and see our sinfulness.and need to change for His good purpose and Glory.
 -------The one thing I have witnessed the Lord do In Dad is make Him 
very transparent, He is quick to confesses and repent ,
                                 He says Sandie I have a confession: -------- I say-------OoooooooooooK! 
He fires off his confession,gives it over to the Lord,and moves forward!
"I find this so attractive in Him", there is great humility In my Husband,a transparency that exposes His inner most thoughts and lays it out bare, "all pride set down"! 
I Love How the Lord is helping Dad work out His Salvation daily....Preparing Him for His heavenly Entry!

In my self-righteous ways--------I am quickly reminded of  my foolishness,  Lord change that in me quickly, annihilate that,it has no place, and replace it with great humbleness,humility,love. 
Our Lord's throne room is open to us because of His Son Jesus Christ we come confessing our sins we are forgiven,and there is such freedom  being freed!
I have learned so much about myself through Dad's affliction, How much I need the Lord's pure Patience,
His Pure kindness, His Pure compassion, His Pure tenderness,  His Pure gentleness, His Pure long suffering,  
His pure self control, His Pure great Love,I need Him desperately all over me daily,
Dad and I  Pray for the fruits of the spirit to flood our souls to reflect and Magnify Jesus, in our marriage, toward each other,and others.
this "does not" come  naturally,---------this is hard work........feelings and emotions get in the way---------and if you say it comes naturally {your a liar}cause in your thoughts Huh! Takes one to know one! Huh!
This is a super natural touch from our Heavenly Father, pouring out what He says He will give us if we ask.---------------pure from Heaven, His Gifts! 

The Lord tells us in His Word He loves a "contrite heart", He is righteous in everything he does; he is filled with kindness. He is close to all who call on him, yes, to all who call on him in "truth". He grants the desires of those who fear him;{Respect, Revere,be in Awe of a Holy God} he hears Our cries for help and rescues Us. He protects all who Love Him, according to His Will, Word and Ways. These are His promises, 

we can testify to this, My Husband is in such severe pain, His head is ready to explode and he's ready to pass out from the pain, we cry out to the Lord God  Almighty were  begging Lord Jesus 
Take this pain away,
Father answers this prayer within minutes--------- My Man is getting relief,----------He's telling me, it's passing---------He's falling asleep----------,having no more pain! ------------ He's asleep!
Praise you Father ,Praise you...............You are our strength, our comfort, Praise you!. This is real, every second Dad is dizzy,so weak he can't walk,or eat, or feeling like he's going to puke because the Head pain is so bad, all we know to do is Cry out asking for relief!  He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 2 Corinthians 1:4
My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.Psalms 119:50

Our hope is in you Jesus, our eternity is with you forever, this is our assurance that this life does not hold us in the grave. {Death was defeated by Christ resurrection} 
Jesus said, ". . . . I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man comes unto the Father, but by me." John. 14:6 There is coming a day when all suffering will end for those who know the Lord Jesus Christ as Savior.

Revelation 21:4 says, "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." 

O How I wait for this day,this is our future promise we can take to the Kingdom bank and cash in on it!

As I was reading through the Psalms I came to this verse:

LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered--how fleeting my life is.Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a "heart of wisdom". 
We are but a breath--Dust---shadow---vapor

In the end of this short life we live -----------where will you spend eternity that is forever?

The great Shepherd  knows all that are His, He guides them by "his Spirit" and word",  to set them in the way of his steps. anyone whose name was not found recorded in the Book of Life was thrown into the lake of fire.
Today is the day of Salvation, Don't be wise in your own minds!

Our Prayer is that you make a decision to know Jesus personally, 
to "not know" Him the consequences are to great eternally for ever"-----

He is but a breath away. ----------and so are you from eternity, with or without Him! 
Jesus Loves you so much He gave His life for you---------

We love you and thank you all who keep us lifted up before the Lord. 
I know the Prayers of the righteous and upright are being heard, there are days I feel my spirit weak and fragile,then the surge of strength comes from the Lord. I know someone has interceded on our behalf,
Dad will gain strength, headache goes away, The Power of the Lord at work in the heavenly realm. 
Thank you, Thank you, Bless you Sisters and Brothers --- Living  the Word, 
We lift up all of those we know afflicted by Cancer and Disease, we pray you be encouraged and steadfast in your walk with Jesus,He is your Rock,anchor,shelter from your storms.
We "Magnify you Father of our Lord Jesus Christ".
we know Yeshua Messiah's Presence is upon us.----hod la- elohim--To God Be the Glory,Glory to God.
Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your Name goes all the Glory for your unfailing love and faithfulness.

Living Hope,Walking by Great Faith, waiting on the Lord!

March 8th 2013
Today was such a beautiful day,"we are home", I say this with great thankfulness and much gratitude. Knowing none of us are promised tomorrow,not even today! Dad and I do not try to take a day for granted,we wake up with thankful hearts, we can touch each other to see if were still breathing and say we made it to another day! THANK YOU JESUS!
Its interesting how a month a go we were on our way to California, "we had not planned to go", but our oldest Son and his family gave us news they were moving to Hawaii, so this meant they would be moving out of our home. 
Just to back up a few months I had expressed in December of 2012 to Ron I believe 2013 will be a very significant year for us,-----------------indeed it has been thus far........so much has transpired in just the past few months,
We have to believe it is what the Lord has ordained for our lives to walk out,and through it all with 
"great trust and great faith" in {Him and Him alone}.

You see it is one thing to "say" I trust you Lord and another to "walk it out" with Him and believe He will do what He says He will do.

His word tells us that He will...........
For since the world began, no ear has heard and no eye has seen a God like you, who works for those who wait for him! Isaiah 64:4 
We wait on the Lord.  we will lean heavily on Jesus, we trust Him at His word, He will give us His strength "we walk in obedience to His word, Serve only the LORD your God and fear him alone. Obey his commands, listen to his voice, and cling to him, this is all we know to do, even when everything around us is falling apart!
He will uphold us, 
we believe and apply His word. Do we have doubts? only when we take our eyes off of our author and finisher! We are flesh and blood and we do war with the flesh and the spirit with in us,our flesh is weak,
but I pray we make the Holy Spirit of God in us the greater influence in all our decisions and choices, for we know the consequences are great if we flounder in our flesh! This is a daily commitment to follow Jesus. 
He will be with us through it all.....walking it out by faith. "not by sight"! Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Heb 11:1
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 11 Cor 4:18
"I will bring that group through the fire and make them pure. I will refine them like silver and purify them like gold. They will call on my name, and I will answer them. I will say, 'These are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.'" Zechariah 13:9
"The heat defiantly got turned up in our lives" more than we would like,
but this we can testify-----what an amazingly kind, gentle,generous,merciful, gracious, loving Father we have through it all, to show us more of those areas of our life we need more of Him! 
How it has pressed us in even more to ask O Father how will you work this one out? Our lives are not our own,they are yours,so we put our faith in action and move until He directs differently.
But we are not like those who turn away from God to their own destruction. We are the faithful ones, whose souls will be saved. Heb 10:39 --------we believe this! we will persevere in our Faith and trust in Jesus Christ, until we meet Him face to face.. We struggle,----we also overcome,-----thank you Yeshua!
Long ago during hours of prayer time, being in the word, the Lord gave us His word through my dear friend and Blood sister in Yeshua Messiah 
this is His promise to us, Do not be afraid for I am with you, Do not be discouraged for I am your God, I will strengthen you in your time of help, and by my victorious right hand I will uphold you.

When we got the news that our Son would be moving, we looked at the Lord asking "what is your will for our lives? The last year we've been asking you Lord what we are to do with our home, we could see the financial burden it has become. 
We prayed much as to how and what your will would be, 

Our Son and his family were not only moving out of our home----- but clear across the ocean! 
Our house was going to be empty! Renting was a thought but so difficult from a distance!.

Dad and I know the Lord's ways are not our ways, this was a big shock to us,we were not prepared for this news......it took a few days to digest, cry,mourn the loss of "3" of our grand babies moving so far away------all the questions flooded us,----what to do?, what are we to do? how will we do it?

Our Hawaii bound family.

 Our Son Nathan His wife Sidjae Daughter Jewel London, {Grandson,Nephew} Elijah

Lord what are you going to do?

Lord we prayed about this and "you have answered this prayer", your way, 
your timing is always right on time, expectantly or unexpectedly! 
You answer prayer--------our faith is now being tested! -------------BAMM! 
not just a little---------- a big lot!
how much do we trust you Lord and take you at your word,and do we "really trust You? 
No lip service here----------And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose Romans 8:28
so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ 
1 Peter 1:7
O Lord help us to put our faith in you in action.................God will do this, for he is faithful to do what he says, 
We are already walking by faith with  Dads brain cancer, knowing the Lord has our best interest at heart, and the peace he has given us through the past 3-1/2 years.
Dad and I packed it up and headed for California one day at a time that's all we knew to do. We got down there and the house was empty only a few boxes left the kids had sold everything of theirs. 
There tickets were bought for Hawaii and as we were there they sold one of their cars and kept the other so Ronnie could continue working, every thing they had was gone except the clothes they were taking and a few other personal things.
As Dad and I looked around so many emotions flooded us,our babies were going to be leaving, they had just come to see us in November and now they are moving across the ocean----------O Lord our hearts are overwhelmed,comfort us now as we feel weak in spirit, strengthen us to walk in your ways knowing you have ordained and purposed this time for us now,even when it looks to be to much all at once.
Our Father is so kind, compassionate,generous in how He comforts us in our time of great need. 
Our Faith was being greatly tested, each step of each day.

In all that was going on it had become way to much for Dad we did not realize the impact it was going to have on Him. 
Dads health was declining rapidly, He had taken all the tools he thought he would need to work on the house,for any repairs we may have needed to do,----- but this did not happen!--------he would wake up get a bite to eat shower,and sleep this went on for almost 3 weeks, He was confused at times,not able to gather his thoughts, very tired, headaches,nausea,
His left side had worsened unable to use fully, no feeling, no grip,very weak. 
The Dr after seeing Dad was so concerned about him he called personally 4 times just to check in on him to make sure he was ok. Even on call over the weekend in case of an emergency.
He put Dad on steroids to shrink the swelling in His brain, Dad's MRI showed the tumor had grown  to 
7.3 cm  the right lateral ventricle is nearly completely effaced {wiped out}by the mass, 
containing cerebrospinal fluid and communicating with the third ventricle. {which pumps oxygenated blood out through the aorta to all the tissues of the body}
There is a worsened mass effect upon the third and fourth ventricles {contains cerebrospinal fluid } Dad's tumor is pressing on the brain stem the danger here is "Brain herniation" it puts extreme pressure on parts of the brain and thereby cuts off the blood supply to various parts of the brain,

The Dr's gave there  medical prognosis, ----------"Dad has less than a year to live", 

                                    "BUT we know that Our Lord has the final say on Dad's life". 
human hands can't serve Our Lord's needs--for he has no needs. God Almighty himself gives life and breath to everything, and he satisfies every need. Acts 17:25

Medically Dad should not be alive, -----------but he is!------------because of "who our Heavenly Father"is!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                "we give Him all the Glory".
Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.{When we see Jesus in all His glory} All that I know now is partial and incomplete,{our finite minds} but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.{Father made us in His own image} He examines the heart closely} Oh how we Love Jesus because He first loved us.
For the living know that they will die,
but the dead know nothing; they have no further reward, and even the memory of them is forgotten. Ecclesiastes 9:5
O LORD my God, you have performed many wonders for us. Your plans for us are too numerous to list. You have no equal. If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds, I would never come to the end of them.
Psalms 40:5
We Magnify you O Lord for there is no one like you, you alone are God. 
                                             "You say when it's time to come home"! 
until then we live to Magnify and testify to "who you are and how great you are". Yeshua Messiah.
Thank you so much to all who have kept us diligently before the Lord in Prayer
Today my Husband rests, Lord Please take away His Headache.

Because of Who you Are-Vicki Yohe

"Waiting upon the Lord"

As Dad and I have been here in California, we have to wait on things before we can do some things,and when you come geared to do, you have to re adjust your plans and wait!
Sometimes this is not the easiest thing to do.
There are things that just are out of our control and we have to wait!
                                   WAIT,WAIT,WAIT,WAIT,WAIT,WAIT,WAIT,WAIT
In our waiting this is when the Lord wants to Show us much, Teach us much, Grow us much, if we are willing to let Him.
In our finite minds we see the "here and now",what I need to do! what needs to be done,etc
We can get anxious, in a hurry, impatient,----questioning the Lord, don't you see the urgency in our situation? Hummmmmmmmmmmmmm
Funny how we get all bent out of shape and think we can deal and handle the things at hand better than the One who made us! Hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!
We have all been there and we can stay here if we "do not trust"  "our Lord and Savior" at what He says he will do!
As I was reading His word He reveals Himself more and more-----My God is always working on our behalf, always---------
We just don't see what our Father in Heaven sees! He sits from His throne room High above the heavens and see's everything from the beginning  to the end of our Lives!
If Dad and I start pushing and prodding and going in every direction trying to make things happen we end up in a heap of Dung, stink, Pile!
Then we would have to ask ourselves do we have  trust issues?  Or are we just very impatient and don't like the Lord's timeline?
 Either or we can make a huge mess of things and walk outside of the "Lords will" real fast.
God's word is so clear about waiting upon Him. His way------------or-----------------Suffer! Pretty clear...
Psalms 27:14-31:14-37:34-40:1-62:5-130:5 Is 25:9 -8:17 Lam 3:25 Hab 2:3
My Holy God has never Lied to me yet-----nor has He ever abandoned me,
"if we are "outside of His will" it will definitely feel like  He has, or if we have lost sight of His promises we can feel like He is not concerned about our troubles-----------
Our trials and testings may seem over whelming and so heavy-- out of control--
But waiting upon the Lord is a time Our God will use this time of waiting to
Refresh us----Renew Us-----Teach us much----grow us, our need for Him----a time of Humbling ourselves before a Holy God!
an incredible need to understand "WHO WE SERVE" A Mighty Big God" Father tells us to have courage,be strong,be brave,and wait patiently upon Him----------Putting all our trust in Him and Him alone, for their is no one like Him!
My Father Lifts us out of despair, He plants our feet in His solid ground, He steady's us in our walk with Him, He Puts a new song in our hearts. Dad and I know that going through these trials ,testings,circumstances,will grow our relationship in Christ Jesus, trusting Him more, believing Him at His word, there is a blessing waiting at the end of all this,-------------it's not always what our flesh desires but what the Lord knows is best for us. I do know that His ways and Plans have been so mush better than what we ever could expect for ourselves. It's always the "unknown that can trip us up". Our part is keeping our Eyes on the author and Perfecter of our lives--------------"Yeshua Messiah God  Almighty"
Let all that we are, wait Quietly before our Lord Jesus Christ, for our hope is in you and you alone!
When we rest in our Almighty Father God "Nothing can Shake Us" What "can't be shaken can't be moved"
O we may get caught off guard----Blind-sided, But we get focused back on Jesus! He is in control.
We belong to Our Father in Heaven, He holds our right hand,He guides us with His perfect counsel through His Word and Prayer, who do we have in Heaven But Our Lord Jesus Christ, we desire Jesus more than anything on this earth, Our health may fail us our strength may grow weary,
Our God remains the Strength of our Heart forever.He is our security.He is who we cling to. We count on our Lord Jesus.
We pray for the Lord's Strength to help us rely on His timing in all the areas of our life, My Lord promises to be with us through all of our troubles.
My Prayer is that during these times of our lives the Lord grows us up  Maturing us in Christ Jesus, as He refines and purifies each area he reveals we need to give over to Him.
He is teaching us much showing His great love and patience through it all.
We see Our Lords sweet,  generous, compassionate kindness all over us each day that he allows us to wake, and Glorify Him.
He has given us the privilege  that we should be called children of God through His Son Jesus Christ, For his Spirit joins with our spirit to affirm that we are God's children.His Holy Spirit lives in us leading, guiding, teaching,convicting,humbling us, His mercy leads us to repentance when we step out of alignment, I thank Our Lord for his long suffering and patience with us.
I get excited when I can Iron sharpen Iron with those who's hearts are so in Love with Jesus they can't help but share what the Lord is doing in their life and tell of His mighty works,and go to His word and see him validate our conversations through e-mail or a phone call.
Because of "Who you are" we give you Glory O Heavenly Father--------Because of "Who you are" we give you praise---because of "Who you are" we will lift our Hands and sing------Lord we worship you because of Who you are.
Lord Bless abundantly all your saints for lifting us up before you in prayer.

Thankful for each day the Lord gives us to Glorify Him.

As I write my Husband sleeps, He sleeps a-lot these days, it seems as tho there were nothing wrong with him when you see him, he looks normal, he has no huge scars on his head, no signs of anything being wrong with him--------------"It's all on the inside of his brain", 
"all the danger" disaster"  lurks in a great mass" growing on his brain",disrupting every part of his body, His thinking, His coordination, His balance, buttoning his shirt,pants etc! 
He is physically getting weaker,his left side is becoming more numb.
Headaches, confusion, rummy-ness, foggy-ness , seizures, swishing noise, ringing in his head that causes him to feel sick,or looses focus of conversation and drifts off -------
the only thing that can make him feel better is sleep. 
Dad has been progressively getting worse, His attention span is very short,we try to get in as much conversation as we can before He's done. 
I watch how each day has less activity, how each day is different, how there is no normality to our day. 
We don't know from one day to the next what will take place.
Anything that requires "expectation" Is to much for Dad.
Our usual routine each day is to wake up get our coffee, spend time with the Lord, exchange what the Lord is showing us,Pray--- get some breakfast,----shower and by then Dad could be done! 
If he is he will lay down,-------If not he will want to go for a ride or a walk. Then he's done! 
Right now we are with Our Family,Grand children and He loves to interact as much as he can.
He wants to do more but just does not have the energy.
I  see the tumor is causing Dad to become weaker, Just to take a shower and get dressed is a great ordeal. takes great effort for him to do----------and the more time he spends doing it becomes tiring and very frustrating.

I can not imagine what it must be like to have some "foreign mass" growing on my brain.
Just to have a headache can be miserable, but to have a "brain tumor,cancer" 
I can not imagine, I can only watch the effects of what it is doing to my Husband, I hate it!
As Ron lays down we talk,we talk about the seriousness of what is happening, we weep together, we realize the Lord may be taking Ron home soon, if He does not heal him!
I feel helpless at times, but "not hopeless"!--all I know to do is go to the one who holds my Man in His hands--
I "pray" over my Husband,"asking Our Father God" to relieve his pain comfort him, give him the sleep he needs to subside his pain, headaches. 
I watch our Father's hand so mercifully touch my Man's body,as I hear him drift off to sleep.
I acknowledge My Lord's greatness and give Him great honor and praise, He alone, deserves to be praised, He is who sustains my husbands life for what each day challenges us to face,"leaning heavily on Jesus", realizing more than anything he is who holds us up through our daily battles, just keeping sense of a senseless disease that has no mercy.
Yeshua Messiah Gives us the strength to face this day, 
My Dearest Friend shared these verses with me months ago
 it is our promise given to us by our Father God---------------

                                                           "IN HIS GRIP"


Psalms 73:23-26
 Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. 
 You guide me with your counsel,and afterward you will take me into glory. 
 Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. 
 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

I believe this with all that is within me, 
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. 
O God it is you and you alone who gives life, Our God is a God who saves! The Sovereign LORD rescues us from death.
One thing Dad and I know is this earth is not our home-----------but as long as the Lord sustains our lives here on this earth we will 
                                        "Magnify and Glorify" "Our God and He alone"!
                                       "There is no one like Him,No one is equal to Him"
                                                       '"No one compares to Him"