Mr C is walking

Since Before Christmas Mr C has had to be  in a wheel chair off and on, due to his Left side being so weak.
He has taken a little longer this time to come back ---------This has been a challenging Hill........ His equilibrium is still off, this morning he was standing in front of where he sits,and started praying,the next thing he was on the floor--------we get excited for the progress but need to remember we have a leg and body that can give out at any time!                                                                                              Praise the Lord He is out of the wheel chair and walking with His cane for this moment.
I thank all who have lifted Dad and I up before the Lord faithfully in Prayer,                                         Our Lord Jesus is continually pouring out His mercy and grace upon us. we are in expressively grateful and thankful for each day we are given.
I was sharing with Dad, that it seems we are given a time to prepare our hearts and allow our souls to be dealt with,and then the fiery trial comes, and each time it gets more intense with more fuel thrown on the fire----HOTTER----- and then we get a reprieve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!                                                   "only to go through it again" and again"... each time we learn something about ourselves that is just not acceptable to what Christ is calling us to be in him.                                                                           If this is my battle ground, my armor is full of holes!!!!!!!!!    My Flesh needs new skin!                                                            
I pray Lord through these times May you continue to pour out your wisdom upon us and surface and expose everything that needs to be purged that we can bear the pain of it, that when each trial becomes more intense we would have a contentment in Christ Jesus that can not shake what can not be moved because of who Jesus is in us.
I realize the Lord want"s to deal with the "business of our hearts", and am I willing to allow Him to show me "every area" that can not be ignored?,
If I truly desire to be more like Him, I am going to be stripped completely BARE to my soul!
Hebrews 4:12 this verse lays us open,it say's"NOTHING IS HID FROM GOD" there are no secrets, it judges our thoughts, and attitude of the soul---heart-----It's interesting how we memorize and read and then it takes a monument or not! for us to get a verse and what the Lord is desiring to sanctify in us through His word.
It is the "thoughts and intents" of my heart" that are brought out to "view" by the word of God".
Our "countenance" can show one thing,but what "lurks on the inside" that is out of control? That's where the real BATTLE IS!!!!!!!! This needs to be dealt with.....daily,moment by moment.

I desire my heart to be so content in Christ Jesus, even in the trials of our affliction that the Grace of gratitude,  would over ride the need to be discontent in my soul, "that my mouth" could utter the "Attributes of God's goodness", and yet my soul be on fire from the exasperation of this trial that continues to test every part of my being,discontentment and or a complaining spirit!.                                 I pray that I may freely allow my soul to be purged and cleansed as my flesh dies to self each day, so that I may gain more of Jesus.
It is not without pain, for my pride does not want to die, If I desire to be under the authority and power of My Lord Jesus, I must yield, submit and commit my will to His and be well pleased by what my Lord desires to change in my heart toward Him. I am learning to Trust my Jesus more each and everyday, and the less I resist,I find it easier to lay down what was difficult the day before.         It is with great peace in knowing His hands are always on us, we see good is the hand of the Lord.

I am continually reminded  the Lord's thoughts are not my thoughts and his ways are not my ways, how can I be more like Christ but to humbly emulate,exhibit, Him day in and day out, unto My Husband, even when I am taxed, exhausted,exasperated,and can't think I can take another moment, How pleasing unto the Lord,when we lay down our flesh and cry out Lord Help me, Teach me your ways,show me how by your spirit I beg of you,for in my own strength I writhe,I need you to fill me with your holiness, goodness, kindness,patience,compassion, to love this man and care for His needs and emulate you Jesus all the while............                                                                                               it is then that a flood of Hope and refreshing comes in a new day, with new mercies and sufficient grace, overwhelming peace and gladness and a new song comes forth.
And my heart is grateful for the opportunity to have another day to exercise what the Lord so graciously gives pure from heaven. Everyday the Lord shows me more of Himself and my Prayer is increase O Lord that I may decrease.
You see I can lay for hours beside my husband listening to him breath hearing every breath,and the gasps for breath at times, and when he's startled in the night he calls my name, forgetting where he is,I take his hand and say here I am,.                                                                                                         he wakes, I attend to his needs and help him when his thinking gets confused, I comfort him when he can't make sense of memory loss,or feelings flooding his emotions, not understanding why his body won't work as it once did.I say a new day is coming,
He is very forgetful,and this begins to upset him,we talk in depth to console his soul,we pray over everything, for our "needs are great" and our "hearts are grateful" we have a Father who loved us first, and is teaching us how to love like Him, He  has shown us His great love in spite of our self.  For without this affliction, without my Husband, I would not be where I am today with My Lord Jesus.
I owe my life to Jesus, May I daily freely without hesitation lay my flesh down that He may be exalted and glorified in all I do to His Glory. I Pray the Lords will over our lives fully and completely. We will see Him face to face soon........
Our Hearts ache,but we always have joy. We are Poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything. 2 Corinthians 6:10 (I have nothing in and of myself,I have ALL things in Christ Jesus)

New Years Jan 1st 2015

Hi Sandie Here, wishing all a very "Happy Reality New Year"! 
Right now your probably thinking about what your going to wear or eat or drink or what cozy pajamas your going to wear, or what so and so is doing--------or what movie your going to watch or ......you fill in the blank--- "Eternity"------far from our minds! Were just not there----why would we be?
I think of eternity a- lot these days, as my Husband has "advanced brain cancer" Today was the first day "he has ever said: I'm going to heaven soon"......... My Heart sank-I grabbed him and held him as long as he could stand, You see My sweet Man sees eternity closer than any one I know.......Mr C looks forward to see Jesus face to face, but he also desires to live as long as the Lord allows, Mr C knows where his eternal address is! Mr C Has a personal relationship with Jesus, we share our daily devotion eating the word,and talking with our Lord Jesus,He is our closest friend,His presence is always upon us, never leaving us nor forsaking us, this is His promise, and we count on His being with us through all of our Stuff----- Mr C does not know when His life will end--- none of us do----Only the Lord knows the days of our Life.
Since the Lord has ordained our days, and knew we would be here this day, The difference Jesus Makes is that He is always with us through our desperate times, our trials, our difficulties, our financial despairs, our hurts, our sorrow, our afflictions, He knows all things--nothing is hidden from Him!----------When we spend time with the Lord we realize how reliable He is, always there for us, with us through it all, His word and prayer are how we communicate with Him.... My prayer over myself "seek Jesus first in all His righteousness" "Human Being with limits"-------- I need some one greater than myself, I do what I see and see what I do!!!!! who do we turn to first? take advice from first???? Take our problems too First??? Who do we Listen too first??? I would Love to share the gospel of my Lord Jesus Christ,,,,if there is anything that would be life transforming---take time to read----- I want to share with you One "God Man"---Jesus ---- NO---- "new years resolution" I Personally have made-- and I've lived 57 years--- has -SATISFIED- FULFILLED- COMPLETED--TRANSFORMED-- MY life, goals are great don't get me wrong ---but everything IN THIS LIFE is "temporary,compared to eternity". We as humans don't really just sit and ponder on eternal things!!!! really think about it!!!!!! Jesus is my lifestyle, He is everything that is within me my greatest desire to be more like Him,and "I am so far from being like Him",but it is what I ask and pray the Lord to change in my very soul,that I would please Him and He alone! Brothers and Sisters in Jesus.... Do you know Jesus? Do you really know what He did for us? Do you live your life as if Jesus is in the house? He is....... you know if you have a personal relationship with Him! You have the Spirit of God in you! Don't you realize that all of you together are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God lives in you? 1 Corinthians 3:16 Are we crucified with Christ? I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20 The measure to which I will manifest the life of Christ is the same measure to which I am willing to put my “self” to death. Any one of us could go home tonight! are you ready to meet the Lord? Have you allowed Him to do His work in you from the inside out? “If self is on the throne, then Christ is on the cross. If Christ is on the throne, then self is on the cross.” 
GOD IS INFALLIBLE___LIMITLESS___ETERNAL___WE NEED "HIS PERSPECTIVE" I NEED HIS PERSPECTIVE DAILY---TO LIVE THE LIFE HE CREATED ME TO LIVE! My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. everyday I need to be intentional,in committing my will and submitting to Jesus, I thank the Lord He first Loved me----------------He knows me all to well, and through my struggles He is present, as I confess my faults and ask please purify this heart of mine,change me don't stop, you see this "fleshy woman", make me more like you Jesus. My God is faithful to answer this prayer.. not without pain..dying to self....putting my flesh on the alter daily..... When we are born again, our old nature doesn't disappear. Instead, a new nature is introduced, and the struggle begins. The two of them battle to the death daily. The old nature cries out “me!,” “mine!” and “ours!”; while the new nature is replying “His!,” “others!” and “theirs!” Lord Jesus help me put this "flesh to death" moment by moment. Or I shall surely die.....(Spiritually) Jesus paid It All ----All to Him I owe----sin had left a crimson stain He made it white as snow.
When Jesus Died on the Cross, God the Father unloaded His Fury, Anger, Wrath— PUNISHMENT Isaiah 53:4-14 "upon an Innocent", and "SINLESS" 1 Peter 3:18 "JESUS"- God's Son. On the Cross, God treated Jesus as if He had personally committed every Sin, by every Person, in the History of the World— those people who would ever Turn to Him for Salvation ----Matthew 4:17. Can you Imagine???? God the Father treated Jesus as if Jesus had lived OUR Sinful Life on this Earth— so that God could treat those who would Repent and Believe the Gospel Mark 1:15 as if we had lived His PERFECT LIFE! Did you get this?????? Sin has to be paid for— Justice has to be served, to satisfy God's Righteous and Holy Anger towards Sin Romans 2:5-11,Ephesians 2:3,Ephesians 5:6 Jesus became the SUBSTITUTE 1 Thessalonians 5:9-10, 2 Corinthians 5:21 for ALL people, those people who would Repent and Believe the Gospel Luke 13:3,5, Acts 20:21,17:30-31,2:38,3:19­, 20:21. HIS PROPHESIED: VIRGIN BIRTH Isaiah 7:14----Fulfilled---- Matthew 1:22-23 ---Jesus' DEATH ----Isaiah 53:12,52:14 ----Fulfilled Matthew 27:50 Jesus' RESURRECTION from the Dead ----Psalms 16:10 -----Fulfilled---- Luke 24:6,31,34 was Prophesied HUNDREDS and THOUSANDS of Years in Advance. ALL Bible Prophecies About Jesus Were Fulfilled in the Bible! WHY DID JESUS HAVE TO DIE FOR OUR SINS? God used the Substitutionary Sacrificial Death of Jesus to Demonstrate Romans 5 for ALL Time His Incredible Wealth of Kindness and His Infinite Love for us. He did so by using the Backdrop of Evil ----2 Corinthians 4:6, which then allowed God to HIGHLIGHT to ALL His Goodness and Mercy Psalms 23:6 Ephesians 2:7 "So God can POINT TO US in ALL FUTURE AGES as EXAMPLES of the INCREDIBLE WEALTH of His GRACE and KINDNESS towards us, as shown in all He has done for us who are united with CHRIST JESUS" God will Forever Receive GLORY and HONOR for all He has done for those who are in Christ Jesus Revelation 4:11,5:12-13 ----Jesus, who is RIGHTEOUS, HOLY, and JUST, DIED for the UNJUST. 1 Peter 3:18 Christ became a "CURSE" for us Galatians 3:13 in order that we could become "the Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus" 2 Corinthians 5:21. In other words, we did a Crime, and Jesus stepped in, and Paid our Fine. This is such Good News of Jesus Mark 1:1 ----the Son of God----- 1 Corinthians 15:2-9 This is a Work of God's Infinite Love and Mercy towards us Sinners --1 Thessalonians 5:9-10, Romans 5:8, Ephesians 2:1-8 THERE ARE 2 CHOICES TO HAVE OUR SINS "PAID IN FULL": 1 - We can Pay for our OWN Sins by spending "Eternity in Hell" ---Revelation 21:7-8;20:11-15 2 - We can Have JESUS CHRIST Pay For Our Sins. THIS IS A TRUTH WE NEED TO HEAR!!!!!! HELL IS REAL!!!!! ETERNITY IS FOREVER!!!!!! WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE BEING SAVED FROM?????? Church Please wake up,we can not live as if this means nothing...........Lives are at stake! lost to eternal Damnation....... have we become so desensitized that we no longer weep over the lost and millions passing into eternal torment...............forever separated from Jesus for all eternity...........I Know this is heavy but this is reality---and this is what Jesus preached, O Jesus forgive us, for our complacency. "Jesus, who is "Infinitely Holy" and "Perfect" took our Sins upon Himself, so God's Wrath and Punishment for our Sin can be "Satisfied". God can then "CANCEL THE RECORD OF THE CHARGES OF SIN" that is presently being held against us ---Colosians 2:14. He will Forgive us, and Cleanse us from ALL Unrighteousness 1 John1:9. He will ADOPT us as His Children Galatians 4:5-7 and we become BORN AGAIN John 3:3, into God's Family. 1 John 3:9 As His Children, we are to Reflect the GLORIOUS IMAGE OF CHRIST in our Lives 2 Corinthians 3:18, 2 Corinthians 5:17, Matthew 5:16, by living HOLY and Clean lives 1 Peter 1:14-15,16-17- for GOD'S GLORY 1 Corinthians 10:31, John 3:30 out of a LOVE FOR JESUS John 14:15,21,Luke 6:46. God will then make us CO-HEIRS WITH CHRIST --Romans 8:17, and we will RULE and REIGN WITH CHRIST in God's Kingdom— FOREVER! Revelation 20:6, Revelation 1:6, Matthew 13:43 This was God's Plan long ago, to Adopt us into His Family--- Ephesians 1:4-5 IF however we REJECT JESUS, and REFUSE TO OBEY THE GOOD NEWS Hebrews 10:26-31, 2 Thessalonians 1:7-11, and or we continue to PRACTICE SIN (reject,rebel against a Holy God) 1 John 3:9-10, we prove that we are NOT God's Children, but we Prove Matthew 3:8 ----that we are Children of the Devil ---- 1 John 3:6-7,8,2:3-6, who is the Father of Lies John 8:44. There will be a Judgment Day where Jesus will punish all Lawbreakers Matthew 7:22-23. A Righteous Judge reacts towards Sin and Wrongdoing with Justice, and does NOT let: Murderers, Rapists, Thieves go Free. Jesus is that Righteous Judge 2 Corinthians 5:10-11,2---- Thessalonians 1:7-11, 2 Timothy 4:1, an because He is Infinitely Holy & Righteous ---1 Peter 1:15-17 His Punishment for Sin is Infinite. Romans 2:5-16. His Rewards are Infinite too --- 1 Corinthians 2:9 WHAT DOES JESUS WANT US TO DO? ------Repent and Believe the Gospel: Mark 1:15, Acts 17:30-31 ,James 4:4-10. Repentance is truly a Work of God in you, it is God giving you a desire to do what pleases Him It is the Lord's kindness that leads us to repentance..Rom 2:4 Philippians 2:13. So if you are Hearing His voice today John 10:3-17, and we hear His Voice through the Preaching of the Gospel ---1 Corinthians 1:18-31, "Don't harden your Hearts" ---Hebrews 3:7-14. Believe the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Then Pick up your Cross Daily, Turn from your Sin and Selfish Ways 2 Corinthians 6:2, and Follow Jesus ---Luke 9:23-26. Get in the word everyday ---Romans 10:17, "Obey God's Word because you Love Jesus" John 14:15,21,24, and want to "Glorify God" in all you do --- 1 Corinthians 10:31. The Lord knows your Heart, He will help you have the desire and help you understand His words------He has given us His Spirit the Counselor...
If you have taken the time to read this, the Lord is given you opportunity to "respond" to Him, Man is but a breath-----Temporary-------In light of Eternity..............As you know and have witnessed in this life, many suffer years with affliction and others die suddenly!!!! The Lord wants non to perish. Today is the day of Salvation...IF you call yourself "Christian" and your living as if this just means a ticket to heaven, and your life is no different than the unbeliever who has never heard, "what seed are you"? Matthew 13 My prayer today 2015 Lord may we not be the same, may we have your heart, what is your heart O Lord? Souls----- People-----And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice--the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.
With all the Love that is within me I Love you all In Jesus Name 
Love Sandie