This was just a week ago today Ron was doing good enough we could go out on the boat with a Dear friend
Marty escorted us over to a near by Island so we could step foot on it and see the"Ol post office" an old Log Cabin, "wild west"------so amazing, so beautiful, you must have a boat to get to it,
and a friend who has "kin!
A very sweet day out on the water,this is very soothing to Dad to be on the water.
Here it is Friday the 22nd a week later and things have changed considerably.
As we go through each day I see how simple our lives have become, nothing seems to important,
too pressing that we rush to do!--- We are on slow mode!
We take it minute by minute, keeping Dad safe from falling, and comfortable as possible!
I am so thankful and grateful for this Property the Lord has allowed us to live on, it is so kind to us!
So peaceful, quiet, stress free,only deer and more deer beautiful scenery------------we take short little walks, just enough to get the ol heart pumping, and the body moving.
Thank you Jesus for your merciful kindness toward us in this simple way.
What used to be just the "norm" Long walks,Yard sales, "looky leuwing" in Hardware store-etc- are over-whelming and tasking ----
If were in the middle of conversation with someone,----so sorry------ forgive our urgent escape------------ its not personal! ------Ron needs to go, it's just to much! --- Home is His safe zone!
we thank the Lord for the "hours" He gives us.
Dad spends most of His days in bed, His headaches have increased,when I ask him the pain level 1-10 they used to be about a 4-6 Now they are 9-9-1/2 this is so not good---
he is more nausea's the pain is so bad, last night was the worst he puked, the pain got so bad, tonight he is dry-heaving and he didn't eat today.
His appetite has decreased, not eating hardly anything, just wants to sleep to rid the pain,
I lay for hours just listening to him sleep,Praying we wake together in the morning---------
My heart aches more than I ever knew it could, to watch my Husband have so much pain,
So many thoughts go through my mind,I can't seem to hold back the tears,
I know the Lord knows what I am feeling,--------I know He knows all my thoughts,
and He knows all the unanswered questions I will ask.
I cry out Abba, Father comfort us in this time of need---please ease Dad's pain away,
O Lord this hurts so bad, -----and yet you know this, -----you know the pain all to well,
you suffered beyond our pains greatly, beyond anything we may humanly endure--you share our pain,
you share our sorrow, you hear our cry, your right here with us through it all, you have never failed us never abandoned us!
In my sorrow and tears,I don't know what tomorrow brings, only you do Lord, the wrenching ache lingers and does not want to let go of the flesh,touch,smell,warmth,laughter,holding hands, arm in arm,kisses,sweet kind words, Mrs C ----I Love you, goofiness, so much time spent together, I never can tire of the time spent together, "Time"slows down,Time speeds up, Time controls,Time passes,Time is wasted,
You have made my days a mere hand breadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Everyone is but a breath, even those who seem secure.Psalms 39:5
It doesn't keep my heart from feeling all the things of my flesh ,I cherish the days we have together blessed no matter our circumstance, We have so many memories together 38 years of them --------
I know you are with us Father,bending down hearing my deepest ache of agony, as I grieve with the one I have deeply grown to love more in this life "because of you Lord Jesus"------------You have blessed our Marriage beyond my expectations.
You have done such a beautiful work in My husband from the inside out, you have changed things in Him that only you could change,because of your great Love, and tender ways speaking into his heart intentionally-Dad has a willing heart to respond to your Spirit and allow you to search,and sift the deepest parts of his heart and refine those areas that only you can do through your word and Holy Spirits convicting power.
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| Dad praising the Lord this morning singing,"How great is our God" |
Dad does not want to be one who "barely makes it through the fire" because of God's mercy, {just satisfied to be saved and live life comfortably without an inner change towards eternity}. ----------
1 Corinthians 3:10-15
By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as a wise builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should build with care.For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ.If anyone builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw,their work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each person's work.
If what has been built survives, the builder will receive a reward.If it is burned up, the builder will suffer loss but yet will be saved--even though only as one escaping through the flames.
Spiritual pride is detestable before the Lord; it is using the greatest favors of God, to feed our own vanity, and make an idol of our self!
Dad and I can only compare and measure our lives according to God's word, and allow His word to kindly judge our lives,and keep us on track!
Dad understands the difference between "being saved" and "working out His salvation daily"! {were saved by God's grace} Because of His Perfect Son Jesus Christ}
It's a daily commitment and a surrender, Dad yields "His will" to the "Fathers will"----He says: Lord have your way and will in my Life and surface all those deep lurking {sins} that violate your Holiness in My life and prevent daily fellowship and intimacy. Take your "double edged sword of truth" and divide my soul and spirit,clean out all the impurities that need purifying,
Our souls are being saved everyday. if we allow God's Holy perfect word to Judge us in a good way every day we open up God's Truth, and see our sinfulness.and need to change for His good purpose and Glory.
-------The one thing I have witnessed the Lord do In Dad is make Him
very transparent, He is quick to confesses and repent ,
He says Sandie I have a confession: -------- I say-------OoooooooooooK!
He fires off his confession,gives it over to the Lord,and moves forward!
"I find this so attractive in Him", there is great humility In my Husband,a transparency that exposes His inner most thoughts and lays it out bare, "all pride set down"!
I Love How the Lord is helping Dad work out His Salvation daily....Preparing Him for His heavenly Entry!
In my self-righteous ways--------I am quickly reminded of my foolishness, Lord change that in me quickly, annihilate that,it has no place, and replace it with great humbleness,humility,love.
Our Lord's throne room is open to us because of His Son Jesus Christ we come confessing our sins we are forgiven,and there is such freedom being freed!
I have learned so much about myself through Dad's affliction, How much I need the Lord's pure Patience,
His Pure kindness, His Pure compassion, His Pure tenderness, His Pure gentleness, His Pure long suffering,
His pure self control, His Pure great Love,I need Him desperately all over me daily,
Dad and I Pray for the fruits of the spirit to flood our souls to reflect and Magnify Jesus, in our marriage, toward each other,and others.
this "does not" come naturally,---------this is hard work........feelings and emotions get in the way---------and if you say it comes naturally {your a liar}cause in your thoughts Huh! Takes one to know one! Huh!
This is a super natural touch from our Heavenly Father, pouring out what He says He will give us if we ask.---------------pure from Heaven, His Gifts!
The Lord tells us in His Word He loves a "contrite heart", He is righteous in everything he does; he is filled with kindness. He is close to all who call on him, yes, to all who call on him in "truth". He grants the desires of those who fear him;{Respect, Revere,be in Awe of a Holy God} he hears Our cries for help and rescues Us. He protects all who Love Him, according to His Will, Word and Ways. These are His promises,
we can testify to this, My Husband is in such severe pain, His head is ready to explode and he's ready to pass out from the pain, we cry out to the Lord God Almighty were begging Lord Jesus
Take this pain away,
Father answers this prayer within minutes--------- My Man is getting relief,----------He's telling me, it's passing---------He's falling asleep----------,having no more pain! ------------ He's asleep!
Praise you Father ,Praise you...............You are our strength, our comfort, Praise you!. This is real, every second Dad is dizzy,so weak he can't walk,or eat, or feeling like he's going to puke because the Head pain is so bad, all we know to do is Cry out asking for relief! He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 2 Corinthians 1:4
My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.Psalms 119:50
Our hope is in you Jesus, our eternity is with you forever, this is our assurance that this life does not hold us in the grave. {Death was defeated by Christ resurrection}
Jesus said, ". . . . I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man comes unto the Father, but by me." John. 14:6 There is coming a day when all suffering will end for those who know the Lord Jesus Christ as Savior.
Revelation 21:4 says, "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."
O How I wait for this day,this is our future promise we can take to the Kingdom bank and cash in on it!
As I was reading through the Psalms I came to this verse:
LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered--how fleeting my life is.Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a "heart of wisdom".
We are but a breath--Dust---shadow---vapor
In the end of this short life we live -----------where will you spend eternity that is forever?
The great Shepherd knows all that are His, He guides them by "his Spirit" and word", to set them in the way of his steps. anyone whose name was not found recorded in the Book of Life was thrown into the lake of fire.
Today is the day of Salvation, Don't be wise in your own minds!
Our Prayer is that you make a decision to know Jesus personally,
to "not know" Him the consequences are to great eternally for ever"-----
He is but a breath away. ----------and so are you from eternity, with or without Him!
Jesus Loves you so much He gave His life for you---------
We love you and thank you all who keep us lifted up before the Lord.
I know the Prayers of the righteous and upright are being heard, there are days I feel my spirit weak and fragile,then the surge of strength comes from the Lord. I know someone has interceded on our behalf,
Dad will gain strength, headache goes away, The Power of the Lord at work in the heavenly realm.
Thank you, Thank you, Bless you Sisters and Brothers --- Living the Word,
We lift up all of those we know afflicted by Cancer and Disease, we pray you be encouraged and steadfast in your walk with Jesus,He is your Rock,anchor,shelter from your storms.
We "Magnify you Father of our Lord Jesus Christ".
we know Yeshua Messiah's Presence is upon us.----hod la- elohim--To God Be the Glory,Glory to God.
Not to us, O Lord, not to us, but to your Name goes all the Glory for your unfailing love and faithfulness.
